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author of DROWNING │ dreamer │ vinyl enthusiast │ Indiana Jones wannabe │ trying to make a difference │ every life is worth living

My debut novel DROWNING is now available!
"The lives of four college students twist together with psychological drama during the fall term of freshman year."
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You see, the thing about optimistic people is that they bottle up all their pessimism until they reach a breaking point.

— 6 hours ago with 47 notes
#life 

I’m drowning
Forever lost to this sea of desperation
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Trying with all my might
Pushing against the definition of wrong
Fingers grasping for everything right
Submerged
In too deep
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Holding onto my last breath
Biding my time
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
I’m drowning
Beginning to panic
Feeling myself start to fall apart
Struggling against
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Disorientation washes over me
Blindness consumes me
This-rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Can’t keep my head up
Holding bated breath
One last fight
Giving it all I got
Heart aching
Soul desperately pleading
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Heart breaking
Soul frantically begging
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Time to give up
Letting go
Loosening my grasp
Sinking deeper
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
I’m drowning
Mind clearing
Lungs emptying
I’m drowning
This rip-current-of-a-life pulling strong
Time has come
I’ve completely let go
I’m drowning

……

My head breaks the surface
Air slaps my face
No sense for struggle
No use for panic
Don’t resist
Don’t defy
Just believe
Have faith
Everything
Will be okay
I will be
Okay

— 16 hours ago with 20 notes
#writings  #poetry  #poem  #creative writing  #life  #depression  #faith 
Look at me…I’m a tumblr user who doesn’t have a display photo.

Look at me…I’m a tumblr user who doesn’t have a display photo.

— 17 hours ago with 9 notes
Don’t hide from the real world—just waiting to be discovered or forgotten or rejected or cherished or needed or wanted or loved. Don’t wait for life to happen so you can start living. Don’t wait for that godsend of olly olly oxen free. Don’t wait in vain when you should be seeking.

Don’t hide from the real world—just waiting to be discovered or forgotten or rejected or cherished or needed or wanted or loved. Don’t wait for life to happen so you can start living. Don’t wait for that godsend of olly olly oxen free. Don’t wait in vain when you should be seeking.

— 19 hours ago with 9 notes
#writings  #creative writing  #quote 

Timehop really makes me want to punch my past self in the face.

— 20 hours ago with 6 notes
#timehop  #annoying 
Olly Olly Oxen Free

Everybody thinks they are a handyman. Everybody claims to have the right tools in their belt. Everybody swears it can be fixed. Everybody promises it’ll be like new. Nobody understands the meaning of the word “irreparable.” Everybody thinks; nobody considers.

It’s not your fault for having delusions of grandeur. It’s just how this world works. They say ignorance is bliss, but wise words don’t change the fact that fighting a losing battle only results in heartache. Don’t waste your time trying to restore a former glory. Accept that it simply can’t be done. Take all those broken pieces and reassemble them into something new altogether. Learn how you can stop it from being broken again. That’s all we can do. That’s the only way to move forward.

It’s like the childhood game of hide-and-seek. When the seeker starts counting with eyes tightly closed, you take off in your search for the perfect hiding spot. You lie in wait to see if your hiding spot is as good of a choice as you believe it to be. Now, it was time to see who will be the last one to be found.

The game can last for hours. As the minutes tick on by, you’re on pins and needles while waiting to be discovered. It’s all an internal battle. Do you give up knowing you’re too hidden for your own good? Do you keep the hope alive that the seeker hasn’t given up the search or, dare I say, forgotten about you?

That’s life though. You find yourself sitting there with controlled breaths while you wait—just waiting to be discovered or forgotten or rejected or cherished or needed or wanted or loved. You are waiting for life to happen so you can start living. You’re waiting for that godsend of “Olly olly oxen free!” so you can come out into the open while remaining safe.

Maybe you’re waiting in vain.

Maybe you aren’t the person who should be hiding.

Maybe, just maybe, you’re the one who ought to be seeking.

Small steps are all it takes. Small step after small step after small step. It may not seem like much to the outside world, but it’s the only way to make progress. You have to get your footing before you can walk, and then walk before you can run.

The small steps aren’t momentous occasions in the journey, no. They slip by without announcement and leave you feeling strong enough to face a new day. It could be the smile of a stranger or the way your head hits the pillow just right before you fall asleep or the joy of reading a book underneath a shade tree on a summer’s day.

Olly olly oxen free. Now go seek your great perhaps.

— 1 day ago with 9 notes
#writing  #creative writing  #life  #writings  #great perhaps  #essay 
My random tweet ended up in The Washington Post Express in DC. I will go on record as saying it’s not my proudest tweet.

My random tweet ended up in The Washington Post Express in DC. I will go on record as saying it’s not my proudest tweet.

— 1 day ago with 47 notes
#beyonce  #fifty shades of grey  #washington post  #twitter 

It feels like I swallowed an anchor.

— 2 days ago with 2 notes
a hard day demands hard liquor

a hard day demands hard liquor

— 3 days ago with 12 notes

"Nobody hαs ever meαsured, not even poets, how much the heαrt cαn hold." — Zelda Sayre Fitzgerald

Zelda, you were a damn good dog. Now, you can finally be at peace. You’ll be missed more than words can say. I know this is just a shout into the universe, but thank you for brightening my life. You were my best friend, and I was there with you until the very end. You’re such a good girl. Please forgive me. I’m so sorry I couldn’t save you.

— 3 days ago with 14 notes

I think that I think too much, I think.

— 4 days ago with 14 notes
Aftermath has two definitions: (1) the consequences of a significant unpleasant event, and (2) new grass growing after mowing or harvest. Which do you let define you? Do you let the disastrous event loom over you? Do you choose to keep growing? I say be the grass.

Aftermath has two definitions: (1) the consequences of a significant unpleasant event, and (2) new grass growing after mowing or harvest. Which do you let define you? Do you let the disastrous event loom over you? Do you choose to keep growing? I say be the grass.

— 4 days ago with 5 notes
#writings  #life 

Cannot decide if the Fifty Shades of Grey trailer is hot…or if it is just Beyoncé moaning her song.

— 5 days ago with 20 notes
#fifty shades of grey  #Beyoncé  #beyonce  #oh my damn 

I’ve read many books and I’ve lived many lives and I’ve learned many lessons. Harmony of the mind, body, and soul is always pertinent to happiness.

— 6 days ago with 40 notes
#writing  #happiness  #Harmony  #mind  #body  #soul  #read  #book  #life